Tuesday, July 5, 2011
Why I choose to wear my baby.
When I was pregnant with Elodie, we were one person. Quiet moments in the backyard, watching the world around us unfold, I would tell her what life was like out here.
The breeze, the birds, the drops of sticky Summer on your bare skin.
After she was born, it felt like a big part of me was outside of my body. Although I physically felt free - no longer bound by the restrictions of a huge, looming belly - I felt a dull, empty ache for where Elodie used to be.
Those first few weeks, it was just us. Naked, warm, comforting. I would press her against my bare skin and we fit together like two missing pieces that were finally bound again. Her head on my chest, her throat against the curve of my breast, her belly against the roundness of mine, an empty, hollow room where she once used to be...we would breathe and our hearts would beat as just one. She was still a part of me in those moments.
Elodie is 3 months old. I love to watch her relationship with my husband, an absolute puddle in the hands of her Dad, I am pulled back to the days where I was also a little girl, in love with my Daddy who could do no wrong. She bats her eyelashes, giggles, and already I watch her flirting with Daddy, and starting this sweet journey of love that Fathers share with their little girls. Always.
And with me?
I can’t wait for her to wake up sleepy and yawning from her naps. To wrap her up and keep her close to my heart, once again. To look down and see her tiny hands, where a round, looming belly once was.
She grabs my (falling) hair and holds up her head, a look of complete contentment across her serious face. She watches the world unfold, through her own eyes, and whispers from me. Stories of the breeze, birds, and sticky drops of Summer on her bare skin.
And in these moments, we are one person again.
Round Two of the Sakura Bloom Styleathon - How wearing my baby has changed my life/why I choose to wear my baby.
Striped shirt - Lilla P, 2011
Gray Skirt - Target, 2010
Leather flip flops - Abercrombie and Fitch, 2007
Denim cut-offs - Thrifted and cut into shorts, 2011
Sunglasses - Selima Optique
Sling - Sakura Bloom
Elodie's onesie - KEEP AUSTIN WEIRD... bought on our babymoon in Austin, 2011